Bleak

Why is it so hard for me to live up to my own expectations?
Why do i have to be such a perfectionist sometimes?

Why do i have to be so unhappy with what i have?

This January is going to be a hectic month.
I foresee myself spiraling out of control and getting all stressed out already.

I am the worst at handling stress.

Sigh

Memories of 2010

2010 was a wonderful year for me and its one of the years that i will remember dearly.

In a nutshell, 2010 I

• Got closer to Julian, Raymond and Darren and formed a bond with them and i'm so sure i wanna continue being great friends after we graduate
• Picked up something i'm not proud of but finally got an answer as to why people have that habit.
• Partied really hard, Clubbed way too many times and of course led to the formation of the HXC crew
• GOT MY DRIVING LICENSE \m/
• Had my first school trip and went to fucking Japan! Definitely the highlight of my year for sure
• Got drunk for the first time
• Had my first jagerbombs and super lambos.
• Had my first holiday with FRIENDS ONLY. Another highlight!
• Did things i regret and most of them with the influence of alcohol
• Made new awesome friends
• Dressed as a fairy for Halloween
• Watched my boyfriend get drunk
• Attended Zouk Out for the first time and also probably my last

2010 was a year of many firsts and a year that i really had a lot of fun. I'm not going to stop having fun in 2011 and look forward for it with an open heart. I'm going to continue having many firsts in 2011 and make it as memorable as 2010 was for me.

I'm going to miss 2010 because 2010 was truly a highlight for me.

I hope 2011 will be three times better and i'm so stoked for it already!

In 2010 i really formed friendships that i wanna keep for the rest of my life because they grew on me and are a part of me :)

In 2010, my boyfriend and i got closer in our relationship and we look forward to our 3rd anniversary and i intend to do something really special with him!

I wrote my new years resolutions earlier today and i actually think my ny resolutions this time can be fulfilled and i don't wanna procrastinate and really really work on my resolutions!

Happy new year guys!

Blob

My self esteem is the lowest it has ever been right now.

Live in the moment

I think we humans spend too much time analysing every single thing.
We think too much about every thing that sometimes we miss an opportunity.
I say we just throw caution to the wind and just live in the moment.
Regret or not? At least we gave it a shot.
A lesson learnt if it was a regret.
but a sweet memory that will never be forgotten if we didnt regret it.

Blog Revival

My dearest Darren Mcqueen found this abandoned blog and started reading my old posts.
Dont know whether to feel happy or extremely paiseh that someone actually bothers to read my blog.
I ditched this space because i dont even know if anyone else even know of its existence and even if they did, would they even bother to read post by post.
But whatever, the lesser the number of pple read the more this blog seems like a personal diary right? Hahaha.

Am suppose to be studying accounting but i am getting so sick of it. The questions always repeat so i really cross my fingers and hope that the main paper on tuesday will be a repeat of the past year papers!

Im craving for baked rice since forever and i still have not had it yet. I must must must have baked rice soon.

Some friend of mine is asking if guys are really superficial when finding a girlfriend and what if they only like you for your looks?

Actually i beg to differ although there is no doubt that Guys are superficial creatures too but i think that girls are ten times worst sometimes!! Like how i can never ever understand when a SUPER CUTE GUY has a below average ahem UGLY FUGLY looking girlfriend.
I mean if the guy was really very superficial then why the fuck is he dating you? He might as well go date some orang utan from the zoo right?

True there are guys out there who like you for your looks and exactly, they are literally just liking your looks not liking you.
I dont believe in liking or loving someone because they are beautiful outside.
Having that outer beauty is a bonus. But having that inner beauty first is the true beauty as cliche as it sounds. So guys should genuinely like you for who you are inside and as a person and not how you look outside.

K im running out of topics to blog about.
I shall try keep this blog alive again.

sometimes i feel i try too hard to strive for perfection.

Goodbye Singapore in 2 days

Off to Texas In 2 days

Cant wait!!!