Many days late for Vday

we celebrated vday really late because vday was on cny duh
and exams were a week after.
so now that the exam are finally over
we celebrated vday today.

Caught Dear John.
Was suppose to catch valentines day but i heard so many mixed reviews
i decided to play safe and catch Dear John instead.
The movie was so-so.
3/5
Just that CHANNING TATUM was uber hotttttt.
I think i squealed when i saw him topless.
I kept nudging kang to work out more.

HAHA.
Overall, the ending was abit bleak..
I've never read the book but I think the book would have been nicer.
So im gonna borrow the book tmr and see for myself!

After the movie, Kang took me on a shopping spreeeee :)
omg love him ten thousand million gazillion.

Afterwhich, we went for dinner at Bar & Billards at Raffles Hotel.
The whole place was so fancy!
It was teemed with angmohs and tai tais!
The buffet was a huge spread.
They had so much food.
They had food that i absolutely love
The desert section was magnifique.

BUT TOO BAD I WAS TOO FULL BY THEN I DIDNT EVEN EAT MUCH.
I was so stubborn i kept insisting and overestimating myself i took so much desert and i hate to say this but i didnt even finish.
I tried forcing myself to eat, constantly telling myself children in Africa are dying

but i just couldnt. Damnit. should have skipped the carbo.
besides the food that i adored, there were food that i would never eat.
For instance, beet root, artichokes, endives, eggplant, radish.
But if you are a fan of such, good place to indulge.

Its like a veggie haven.

As the place was so fancy and there were so many high class people,

i kept telling kang to be high class also! HAHAHA.
I kept telling him to stop cursing!
I was telling myself to mind my manners also

but i just had to drop the cutlery AND a piece of cake on the floor.
wow. i wanted to just die on the spot.

Overall, it was a great day with kang :)

i love you.

because you dont just care about today, but you care about tomorrow.

Unpredictability

Life is so unpredictable and i think we should cherish every moment we have with our loved ones. I think us human beings hate more than we love.
And we should all just bury the hatchet now.
Before its too late

CNY

CNY this year came so quickly and ended so quickly!
There are several reasons why Cny isnt so festive as it was last year or the previous years because
1. final exams happen to be the week after cny which means i'll be spending my time studying my ass off. not cool.
2. my granduncle past away last dec and you know the elders are traditional, pantang so cny this year was really really quiet.
3. a bunch of distant relative went overseas which made the cny party on day 1 even more quiet.
4. i dont know why but people ARE STARTING TO FORGET WHO AM I.

Its damn sad when your relative cannot remember who you are or recall who's daughter you are.
Like day 1, my dad's cousin was giving out angbao and i blatantly STOOD infront of her but she just like ignored me or something.
If it wasnt obvious enough that she forgot who i was,
she gave an angbao to a 30 somethingish guy!!!!
WHAT ABOUT ME.

Okay i sound like a brat but really it hurts when someone forgets you and misses you out on the angbao!!!
Im not sad that i didnt get an angbao

IM SADDER that I WAS FORGOTTEN.

My mum said its because i look grown up.

oh so the 30 somethingish guy looks younger than me and
so that makes me 40?!!!

BUAY SONG.

Then my mum ruled out that maybe its because i was a girl.

But that doesnt make sense to not give a girl.

hello we are not in China.

Girls have a stake in this country also.

okay nvm. I got over it already.

Next year just need to dress down.

Be abit more childish in my dressing

and maybe look abit more boyish.

Anyway, this 2010 holds alot of happy moments for my family!
Especially in the month of september

because 3 of my aunts are delivering!!
and my uncle is finally getting hitched!!
Omg excited already!

Texas & my 19th bdae wish list

I'm leaving for Texas on the 22nd of March, next month!
I know i was there in 2008 but i just feel that i didnt really got to see Texas completely
so my family's going back there to rediscover Texas all over again!
& of course make several shopping trips!

Just thinking about leaving Singapore makes me so excited.

I need to get out of here.

Its so hot, need to escape from the immense heat.

I need a hiatus.

I need to shop
I need to indulge myself with ben and jerrys.

This is totally random but i got so bought i started brainstorming what i want for my bdae this year and i thought omg!!
My bdae wishes can all be found in Texas and at a much cheaper price!!!

Its funny how when we were kids all we ever wish for was for more toys!
I still rmb how when i was in 5-9 years old, each year i would have a different Barbie!
I still have my Barbie collection somewhere and i dont intend to give my Barbie collection away
because they are still precious to me although i dont play with them anymore.
But i intend to pass down to my daughter in future!

So as the year goes by, our wish list changes. from toys to gadgets to fashion must haves.
I was brainstorming for my bdae wish list for this year and i think i quite a brat! But i cant help it! They are really all damn chio!

1. LAPTOP: Super essential right now because my laptop's graphic card spoilt and HP told me that the part needed to fix the problem was OBSOLETE. So laptop is number one on my list since i need them for school and dota! (omg havent dota-ed for ages ) and computers in usa are cheapppppppp.

2. Rayban Sunglasses: They are super cute! Saw them on SHAPE USA and i'm so gonna get one when i'm in the states!!! CHEAP also 130 US!

3. Guess watch: Okay it doesnt have to be from Guess but i love the design and i need a new watch too. I keep wearing the same watch everyday..

4. Juicy Couture earrings! OMG CUTE MUCH. Dont care gonna buy them for myself in the states!!!

5. Coach purse: I love the turqoise! Need to open my eyes for this when i'm in factory outlet!

6. Chanel tote bag: okay this is totally irrevelant.
Kang promised he'll buy me a chanel when he gets his first pay!!!!!!
First pay= when he starts working officially.

HAHAHAHA damnit.

7. Dr martens: I just think its really cute. A little crazy to wear in singapore also..
The weather so hot, my feet cant breathe.
If raining, my heart will ache.

8. Juicy couture charm bracelet & necklace: I have an insane love for charm braclets! And the necklace is so chio.

Okay totally random and narcisstic and self indulgent post so please, do ignore.

mad excited!

Am so proud of myself for pulling through the last few weeks where i was mad busy!

Thank God its gonna be over tmr! Just one more interview role play to go!

Mad excited because tomorrow i'll be heading down town to shopppp! YESSSSSS.
Finally i can set foot at FOREVER 21 AT 313 AGAINNNNN
muahahaha.

Can imagine myself browsing through racks of clothes and kang impatiently waiting to leave my paradise island.
omg just thinking about tomorrow makes me super excited already!

Actually being busy and a geek was a blessing in disguise because i managed to save a huge lump of money!! which i intend to to spend tomorrow i dont care! :D

Kang's such a sweetheart.
Valentines day's round the corner and i know or at least i think he's putting in effort to do something special this year :)
I more or less know what to get for him for vday!
I know he is still clueless so..
I gave him suggestions!

Since vday and CNY clashes, it only makes sense to tie CNY AND VDAY TGT

so.. i suggested to give me a hamper!

OF COURSE NOT a hamper full of abalone, bird nest, chicken essence, etc..

cause that hamper would end up my mum's vday present and not mine and it wouldnt make sense..

But a hamper filled with shoes, accessories, cosmestics, girl stuff!

omg best present ever for me i think.

i once again hope he gets the hint.

HE SOMEHOW NEVER EVER GET MY HINTS. ahem.

angry/tired/ sleepy/ moody/ pms/ f up

Have been so busy lately. It's like my busy schedule is ongoing and never ending!
It really sucks because this has affected my sleep.
and its not fair because its not like i dont want to sleep or staying up late watching tv, but
i am seriously tired as hell. emotionally and physically. but my body or brain just refuses to let me sleep. It really really sucks because i spend like 2 hours tossing and turning, counting sheep, closing my eyes, trying so hard to shut everything out from my mind but i still cant get to sleep!
Ugh. and my class is at 9am which made everything worst because i go to school all zoned out.
The amount of sleep i had in the past days is less than 10 hours.

I've got 3 tests this week.
Another one next week. Oh god.
2 more project submissions.
Final exams in 3 weeks.


Lately, my laptop decided to just die on me.
So i have to find a day, go down all the way to alexandra road which is mad far just to service it and then travel another day to retrieve it back. ugh.
The man told me my harddisk wont be affected and it better not be cause i've got like photos that date back to 2006 to present. and 3000 over music.
So really i can imagine how mad i am going to be if my harddisk was affected.

My parents havent been making things better too.
Simply because they LOVE LOVE LOVE to add more pressure.

I get so stressed up when the tests are coming because i feel every pressure to get an A.
i've mentioned before on how my parent's expectations of me are like sky high.
Sometimes i feel like i study so damn hard only for their sake. I do study for myself but i just cant help but feel that im trying so hard for them.
Because of all the pressure they give me, i drive myself into endless stress.
I tell myself to take a chill pill, relax but it just doesnt work.
The thought of failing or doing badly makes me scared.
Scared that i will let myself down for not trying hard enough.
Scared that i let my parents down.
and so i push myself even more.

so much so that i feel like im driving myself crazy literally.

No one can tell me to relax or take it easy because they will never understand the pressure my parents give me. Unless your parents are just like mine.
When good is never good enough.