Blob

My self esteem is the lowest it has ever been right now.

Live in the moment

I think we humans spend too much time analysing every single thing.
We think too much about every thing that sometimes we miss an opportunity.
I say we just throw caution to the wind and just live in the moment.
Regret or not? At least we gave it a shot.
A lesson learnt if it was a regret.
but a sweet memory that will never be forgotten if we didnt regret it.

Blog Revival

My dearest Darren Mcqueen found this abandoned blog and started reading my old posts.
Dont know whether to feel happy or extremely paiseh that someone actually bothers to read my blog.
I ditched this space because i dont even know if anyone else even know of its existence and even if they did, would they even bother to read post by post.
But whatever, the lesser the number of pple read the more this blog seems like a personal diary right? Hahaha.

Am suppose to be studying accounting but i am getting so sick of it. The questions always repeat so i really cross my fingers and hope that the main paper on tuesday will be a repeat of the past year papers!

Im craving for baked rice since forever and i still have not had it yet. I must must must have baked rice soon.

Some friend of mine is asking if guys are really superficial when finding a girlfriend and what if they only like you for your looks?

Actually i beg to differ although there is no doubt that Guys are superficial creatures too but i think that girls are ten times worst sometimes!! Like how i can never ever understand when a SUPER CUTE GUY has a below average ahem UGLY FUGLY looking girlfriend.
I mean if the guy was really very superficial then why the fuck is he dating you? He might as well go date some orang utan from the zoo right?

True there are guys out there who like you for your looks and exactly, they are literally just liking your looks not liking you.
I dont believe in liking or loving someone because they are beautiful outside.
Having that outer beauty is a bonus. But having that inner beauty first is the true beauty as cliche as it sounds. So guys should genuinely like you for who you are inside and as a person and not how you look outside.

K im running out of topics to blog about.
I shall try keep this blog alive again.

sometimes i feel i try too hard to strive for perfection.

Goodbye Singapore in 2 days

Off to Texas In 2 days

Cant wait!!!

Escapism

Like Eliza said; Fake it till you make it

Thats exactly what me & you are doing

Running away

Many days late for Vday

we celebrated vday really late because vday was on cny duh
and exams were a week after.
so now that the exam are finally over
we celebrated vday today.

Caught Dear John.
Was suppose to catch valentines day but i heard so many mixed reviews
i decided to play safe and catch Dear John instead.
The movie was so-so.
3/5
Just that CHANNING TATUM was uber hotttttt.
I think i squealed when i saw him topless.
I kept nudging kang to work out more.

HAHA.
Overall, the ending was abit bleak..
I've never read the book but I think the book would have been nicer.
So im gonna borrow the book tmr and see for myself!

After the movie, Kang took me on a shopping spreeeee :)
omg love him ten thousand million gazillion.

Afterwhich, we went for dinner at Bar & Billards at Raffles Hotel.
The whole place was so fancy!
It was teemed with angmohs and tai tais!
The buffet was a huge spread.
They had so much food.
They had food that i absolutely love
The desert section was magnifique.

BUT TOO BAD I WAS TOO FULL BY THEN I DIDNT EVEN EAT MUCH.
I was so stubborn i kept insisting and overestimating myself i took so much desert and i hate to say this but i didnt even finish.
I tried forcing myself to eat, constantly telling myself children in Africa are dying

but i just couldnt. Damnit. should have skipped the carbo.
besides the food that i adored, there were food that i would never eat.
For instance, beet root, artichokes, endives, eggplant, radish.
But if you are a fan of such, good place to indulge.

Its like a veggie haven.

As the place was so fancy and there were so many high class people,

i kept telling kang to be high class also! HAHAHA.
I kept telling him to stop cursing!
I was telling myself to mind my manners also

but i just had to drop the cutlery AND a piece of cake on the floor.
wow. i wanted to just die on the spot.

Overall, it was a great day with kang :)

i love you.

because you dont just care about today, but you care about tomorrow.

Unpredictability

Life is so unpredictable and i think we should cherish every moment we have with our loved ones. I think us human beings hate more than we love.
And we should all just bury the hatchet now.
Before its too late

CNY

CNY this year came so quickly and ended so quickly!
There are several reasons why Cny isnt so festive as it was last year or the previous years because
1. final exams happen to be the week after cny which means i'll be spending my time studying my ass off. not cool.
2. my granduncle past away last dec and you know the elders are traditional, pantang so cny this year was really really quiet.
3. a bunch of distant relative went overseas which made the cny party on day 1 even more quiet.
4. i dont know why but people ARE STARTING TO FORGET WHO AM I.

Its damn sad when your relative cannot remember who you are or recall who's daughter you are.
Like day 1, my dad's cousin was giving out angbao and i blatantly STOOD infront of her but she just like ignored me or something.
If it wasnt obvious enough that she forgot who i was,
she gave an angbao to a 30 somethingish guy!!!!
WHAT ABOUT ME.

Okay i sound like a brat but really it hurts when someone forgets you and misses you out on the angbao!!!
Im not sad that i didnt get an angbao

IM SADDER that I WAS FORGOTTEN.

My mum said its because i look grown up.

oh so the 30 somethingish guy looks younger than me and
so that makes me 40?!!!

BUAY SONG.

Then my mum ruled out that maybe its because i was a girl.

But that doesnt make sense to not give a girl.

hello we are not in China.

Girls have a stake in this country also.

okay nvm. I got over it already.

Next year just need to dress down.

Be abit more childish in my dressing

and maybe look abit more boyish.

Anyway, this 2010 holds alot of happy moments for my family!
Especially in the month of september

because 3 of my aunts are delivering!!
and my uncle is finally getting hitched!!
Omg excited already!

Texas & my 19th bdae wish list

I'm leaving for Texas on the 22nd of March, next month!
I know i was there in 2008 but i just feel that i didnt really got to see Texas completely
so my family's going back there to rediscover Texas all over again!
& of course make several shopping trips!

Just thinking about leaving Singapore makes me so excited.

I need to get out of here.

Its so hot, need to escape from the immense heat.

I need a hiatus.

I need to shop
I need to indulge myself with ben and jerrys.

This is totally random but i got so bought i started brainstorming what i want for my bdae this year and i thought omg!!
My bdae wishes can all be found in Texas and at a much cheaper price!!!

Its funny how when we were kids all we ever wish for was for more toys!
I still rmb how when i was in 5-9 years old, each year i would have a different Barbie!
I still have my Barbie collection somewhere and i dont intend to give my Barbie collection away
because they are still precious to me although i dont play with them anymore.
But i intend to pass down to my daughter in future!

So as the year goes by, our wish list changes. from toys to gadgets to fashion must haves.
I was brainstorming for my bdae wish list for this year and i think i quite a brat! But i cant help it! They are really all damn chio!

1. LAPTOP: Super essential right now because my laptop's graphic card spoilt and HP told me that the part needed to fix the problem was OBSOLETE. So laptop is number one on my list since i need them for school and dota! (omg havent dota-ed for ages ) and computers in usa are cheapppppppp.

2. Rayban Sunglasses: They are super cute! Saw them on SHAPE USA and i'm so gonna get one when i'm in the states!!! CHEAP also 130 US!

3. Guess watch: Okay it doesnt have to be from Guess but i love the design and i need a new watch too. I keep wearing the same watch everyday..

4. Juicy Couture earrings! OMG CUTE MUCH. Dont care gonna buy them for myself in the states!!!

5. Coach purse: I love the turqoise! Need to open my eyes for this when i'm in factory outlet!

6. Chanel tote bag: okay this is totally irrevelant.
Kang promised he'll buy me a chanel when he gets his first pay!!!!!!
First pay= when he starts working officially.

HAHAHAHA damnit.

7. Dr martens: I just think its really cute. A little crazy to wear in singapore also..
The weather so hot, my feet cant breathe.
If raining, my heart will ache.

8. Juicy couture charm bracelet & necklace: I have an insane love for charm braclets! And the necklace is so chio.

Okay totally random and narcisstic and self indulgent post so please, do ignore.

mad excited!

Am so proud of myself for pulling through the last few weeks where i was mad busy!

Thank God its gonna be over tmr! Just one more interview role play to go!

Mad excited because tomorrow i'll be heading down town to shopppp! YESSSSSS.
Finally i can set foot at FOREVER 21 AT 313 AGAINNNNN
muahahaha.

Can imagine myself browsing through racks of clothes and kang impatiently waiting to leave my paradise island.
omg just thinking about tomorrow makes me super excited already!

Actually being busy and a geek was a blessing in disguise because i managed to save a huge lump of money!! which i intend to to spend tomorrow i dont care! :D

Kang's such a sweetheart.
Valentines day's round the corner and i know or at least i think he's putting in effort to do something special this year :)
I more or less know what to get for him for vday!
I know he is still clueless so..
I gave him suggestions!

Since vday and CNY clashes, it only makes sense to tie CNY AND VDAY TGT

so.. i suggested to give me a hamper!

OF COURSE NOT a hamper full of abalone, bird nest, chicken essence, etc..

cause that hamper would end up my mum's vday present and not mine and it wouldnt make sense..

But a hamper filled with shoes, accessories, cosmestics, girl stuff!

omg best present ever for me i think.

i once again hope he gets the hint.

HE SOMEHOW NEVER EVER GET MY HINTS. ahem.

angry/tired/ sleepy/ moody/ pms/ f up

Have been so busy lately. It's like my busy schedule is ongoing and never ending!
It really sucks because this has affected my sleep.
and its not fair because its not like i dont want to sleep or staying up late watching tv, but
i am seriously tired as hell. emotionally and physically. but my body or brain just refuses to let me sleep. It really really sucks because i spend like 2 hours tossing and turning, counting sheep, closing my eyes, trying so hard to shut everything out from my mind but i still cant get to sleep!
Ugh. and my class is at 9am which made everything worst because i go to school all zoned out.
The amount of sleep i had in the past days is less than 10 hours.

I've got 3 tests this week.
Another one next week. Oh god.
2 more project submissions.
Final exams in 3 weeks.


Lately, my laptop decided to just die on me.
So i have to find a day, go down all the way to alexandra road which is mad far just to service it and then travel another day to retrieve it back. ugh.
The man told me my harddisk wont be affected and it better not be cause i've got like photos that date back to 2006 to present. and 3000 over music.
So really i can imagine how mad i am going to be if my harddisk was affected.

My parents havent been making things better too.
Simply because they LOVE LOVE LOVE to add more pressure.

I get so stressed up when the tests are coming because i feel every pressure to get an A.
i've mentioned before on how my parent's expectations of me are like sky high.
Sometimes i feel like i study so damn hard only for their sake. I do study for myself but i just cant help but feel that im trying so hard for them.
Because of all the pressure they give me, i drive myself into endless stress.
I tell myself to take a chill pill, relax but it just doesnt work.
The thought of failing or doing badly makes me scared.
Scared that i will let myself down for not trying hard enough.
Scared that i let my parents down.
and so i push myself even more.

so much so that i feel like im driving myself crazy literally.

No one can tell me to relax or take it easy because they will never understand the pressure my parents give me. Unless your parents are just like mine.
When good is never good enough.

Sexually Harassed?

not exactly.. but apparently some nataliae****@hotmail added me and gave me chills.

i forgot what the real email is because i blocked/deleted the person but somehow this person could still talk to me!!! omg creepy.

So this nataliae person requested to be on my contact list and i added because for all i know that person might be someone from school and so i accepted.

The person didnt talk to me for days until like 2 nights ago when he/she said ( i cant rmb word for word that he/she said but it went smth like this)

nataliae: Hi

Me: Who are you?
nataliae: Hi 21/f you are a male right
Holy shit i got so mad because first of all its like my stupid display picture is in his/her face and its OBVIOUS i was a female. Unless i look like a tranny but even still, I LOOK LIKE A GIRL.

Me: wtf i am female cant you tell from my display picture. now who are you

nataliae: i just got off from work and i just want someone to talk to and relax
me: how did u get my email

nataliae: do you webcam? cause i have a way we can webcam and we wont get recorded and caught. i tried yahoo but its unsafe.

I was like wtf?!!! webcam for fuck? this nataliae person confirm plus chop some ugly ass hairy dude who wants to flash me his penis.

Me: um no thanks.

THEN I DELETED/ BLOCK HIM.

Okay it was seriously scary because when i was gonna delete him, his pm was like " watch me naked http://www.something.com CREEPY AS HELL.

Its quite obvious nataliae is a male who wants to flash me his penis. unless nataliae is really a 21/f who is a lesbian and wants to get cheeky with me but UNLIKELY.

Then just yesterday, nataliae NUDGED ME like crazy and i got so fucking scared cause i thought i already deleted/blocked him!!! HOW DID HE MANAGE TO TALK TO ME? I panicked, i just close the conversation. then i thought, DAMNIT I SHLD HAVE REMEMBERED IT, THEN GET KANG TO ADD AND THEN SEE WHO NATALIAE IS.

IF NATALIAE REALLY SOME 21/F THEN KANG GAIN. BUT IF SOME UGLY FAT ASS GUY AND HIS SMALL PENIS THEN KANG CAN PUKE ALL OVER MY COM.

Omg scary.

Just read that tila tequila's pregnant. This is surreal. Because i cannot imagine her being a mum. Its like they'll walk naked at home everyday and she'll teach her child to grind and lapdance instead of the alphabets.

OKAY BACK TO WORK.

The Big Fiasco

Everyone by now would have heard and even seen the video of the girl in bikini openly molested during the sentosa countdown party.
I didnt know anything about it until Cheryl showed me the video and after watching the video, i was utterly disgusted by what i saw. 4 bangladeshi man happily groping her boobs and having their hands everywhere on her body. The worst part was that no one bothered to do something about it and stood by and film! I got so so mad, i couldnt stop cursing the 4 guys to burn in hell.

http://www.razor.tv/site/servlet/segment/main/most_popular/

I continued to follow the news about her because i felt so bad for her and i was anxiously waiting for her to file for a report.. But she didnt.. which is hell weird because who in the world would get sexually assaulted and just brush it off? I WOULDNT THATS FOR SURE. In fact i would gone into a frenzy and killed them that instant and prolly end up in jail because i absolutely cannot tolerate such acts.

So i waited and waited then rumors started spreading like wild fire that she was a transsexual. I couldnt believe it, i went to watch the video again and i started reasoning with a sane mind that OMG SHE IS REALLY A TRANSSEXUAL.

Because first of all i saw pictures of her on facebook and she looks rather manly just that her boobs were mad perky and she was in FREAKING LINGERIE. Those lingerie where you wear in the bedroom and seduce your boyfriends/ husbands/ affair wtv.
In the video it looked like a cute pink bikini but in truth it was a FREAKING SEE THROUGH LINGERIE. I could see the outline of the tits already la! Anyhow, who in the right mind goes to a party in lingerie? NOT EVEN TO A PJ PARTY OKAY.

Then i realised that she actually seemed like she was enjoying it when she was getting touched everywhere! She was smiling and laughing and god knows what else! Why in the world is she enjoying this?! She didnt bother pulling away or asking for help. She just stood there, continue dancing away and disrespecting herself and her body.

So many questions were raised, why didnt her friends do something abt it? Why are singaporeans so kiasi and not try to do something abt it? Ultimately, did she deserve it?

So what if the molestors had a big group of friends with them? Dont you think you should do something to stop them?
I would have. Obviously not go and confront them on my own because i would be digging my own grave and getting groped as well. BUT i would have alerted the security at least!
Are you telling me you'll stand there and enjoy watching someone that you know, getting touch all over but you wont do shit just because those molestors had like 10 friends with him?

So what if she was in a lingerie? Does that mean she is asking for it? I dont think so at all! Even though i highly think she's abit cuckoo to dress like this but doesnt mean she is scantily clad means she's openly asking to be touch right?
That means if you accidently forgot to lock your door and some bastard broke in then would you like it if the burglar said YOU ASKED FOR IT WHAT. omg? brains please.

And so what if she's a transsexual? that doesnt mean that transsexual likes to be touched? Thats stereotyping! Transsexuals are humans too. they want to be respected. I mean yeah shes a transsexual, a man, it, animal blah blah blah. whatever. So its okay for transsexual to be touched or rather a "man" to be molested?

Despite all the allegations, i can totally understand why any guy would go and touch her because men has got raging testosterone levels and they use their other head to think.

Anyhow, even though THE GUYS DO NOT HAVE A RIGHT TO TOUCH HER JUST BECAUSE SHE IS A TRANSSEXUAL OR IN LINGERIE, i am still so disgusted that someone like her would consent to it and openly let people film you and touch you. Still, she doesnt deserve it even though she was enjoying it.

Kanchiong Spider

The Final exam's coming in a month + and i'm already feeling nervous!!!
I feel like i've got so much left undone and uncomplete! I think i'm an obsessive compulsive disorder. I get very worried and jumpy about everything especially school work. A good thing or not? I dont know, you tell me.

Its almost the end of my school year and that means all my project due dates are all round the corner and every project feels so untouched and uncompleted! It makes me super nervous!

In just a month, it'll be CHINESE NEW YEAR $$ but the suay part is i've to study during cny. Not cool. I promise i'll start earlier! Really excited about chinese new year! This year i decided to wear whatever i have in my closet! I dont think i need new clothes this year because i have tonnes of clothes in my closet, some i havent even worn before! So i'll just dig for clothes i've never even more and just make do with it!

After chinese new year and the final year exams, IT'LL BE THE HOLIDAYS. HELL YEAH. Then i'm off to texas for 2 weeks :) cant wait already! I've been having dreams about me in texas, shopping and stuff!! i know so crazy and obsessed..
Still crossing my fingers and hoping for a miracle that kang will have a sudden windfall and have tonnes of money so much that he can just fly off to texas with me!!!

Overdue 2010 Resolution

Every new year, I love writing my new year's resolutions cause i can come up with all sorts of funny things i wish to achieve but somehow, always unattempted.

But this year i promise myself that this 2010 resolutions wont be unattempted and forgotten like how every year's resolution's been forsaken and uremembered.

Heres the big list:

1. Continue working hard to do well and get a good GPA and get $ from daddy

2. Toned up, exercise 3 times a week. yeah wtv. This will forever be on my new year's
resolution. Every girl's dream to lose weight what. Girls forever complaining fat.

3. Quit procrastinating. This means i have to stop saying i'll do this tmr and end up doing it next week -.-

4. Throw an awesome 19th birthday

5. Dont upset my parents

6. Stop calling Kang an ah pek. But really kang is damn traditional/ conventional!!! You need to keep up with trend boy.

**7. MOTIVATE MYSELF TO GET MY ASS TO TENNIS TRAINING if not if the year 1s this april better than me i have no one to blame but myself. I will bury myself in embarrasment and prolly never return to tennis which i really dont want to happen :(

8. Hopefully get my STB scholarship. not trying to haolian or what but if i really get i think my whole family will be in jubilation, throw every party possible. However, getting this scholarship is fucking hard. They're only issuing 3 scholarships out of 500 students? So if i get it, its like striking 10 million toto.. but keeping faith.

10. GET MY DRIVING LICENSE ASAP. I need to get my license so travelling would be x10 easier!!!

11. Go on a holiday with the girls & boys!!! I dont care where. Just need to go! But preferable thailand for shopping!!

Thats all i can think of for now.. But more than enough for this year. Really hope 2010 would have surprises instored for me! :)

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An hour ago, my mum and i got into a super ridiculous fight. I was desperately finding an auto driving instructor because my PDL is expiring next month but i'm already prepared to renew my PDL but thats not the reason why we got into a fight.

Initially, i had a instructor that stays in the same condo as i do and it would have been so much of a convenience for me as he said he could send me to and fro from the driving centre. I was so excited and all ready to learn from him but when i made a phone call to book an appt, he said his car was manual. Jaw dropped for 5 seconds because i felt so dumb not double checking months ago and getting all excited for nothing, but he gave me his friend's number. Called his friend, the whole time he was conversing in chinese. Asked if he speaked english and could teach me in english, he said " yi dian dian". Jaw dropped another 5 seconds cause my chinese is shit and we're like one chicken, one duck. Panicked even more..

Started sourcing for numbers from friends in desparation and to my dismay, all learning manual.. I thought everyone would make their lives easier and drive auto but sadly, no. So they passed me their friend's instructor's numbers and they were charging $30 per hour and could speak english!!! yesssss finallyyyyy NOT

My mum felt that i'm being too fussy about instructors because i can just make do with the one who teaches in chinese. Why? because he charges $26 per hour and that means my dad can save $4.

Im not complaining that my parents are cheapo or what but seriously. HOW IN THE WORLD AM I GOING TO LEARN FROM HIM WHEN HE SPEAKS CHINESE 99% OF THE TIME. Maybe the only english words he know are Hello, right, left, this one, that one, reverse, neutral, gear, etc..
I have to put my pride aside and say that MAYBE
the problem lies in me because I dont even know what the steering wheel/ junction/ signboard/ trafficlight/ expressway and many many more road terms are called in chinese.

The whole fight was that my mum insisted that i learn from him because there's no need to pay $4 more for someone who speaks english.. She even had to point out that i got a B3 for chinese o levels, my chinese cant be that bad blah blah blah, you're a chinese last time i learn also in chinese blah blah blah. WOW
How about my chinese o level score can suck my toes because i dont believe i really got B3?! i think it was because of all the moderation and luck during the chiense cloze passage ( zhong tian kong wen ? )

I dont know if i'm being selfish but i really dont see a point in saving the $4 if i'm going to be in a car feeling so foreign because my chinese is broken and half the time he'll be trying to explain himself or i for the matter.

But I decided to give in because my new year resolution was not to upset my parents.. so staying true to my resolution number 5, i gave in.

I'll be having my first lesson with him on wednesday next week and i'm going to see how everything goes.

Hello 2010, Goodbye 2009!

Happy New Year! I dont know what to expect for 2010 but i'm pretty hyped up & ready for it! Everyone's complaining that their 2009 sucks and they hope 2010 will be better but i think my 2009 still went pretty well! (despite the few downs )

Its really really scary how time flies and with a snap of fingers, we're in a new year again.. I still cannot absorb the fact that 2009 has ended! im crossing my fingers that 2010 would still be as great as 2009 or greater than 2009.

Some major higlights of 2009.
Ps: Long and draggy post but doing this cause i jia pa jin eng. So dont bother reading it if you dont have 15 mins to spare!

January 2009

Angeline's Birthday party. Two words " Dead Drunk" I will never forget Angeline's party not because she threw a super awesome party (kidding la it was awesome!) but because this was one of the worst drunken nights i've ever had. (Thank God i started this new year SOBER and smelling of body soap and not alcohol! Am gonna stay drunk free this year) Eliza, my bf not the same for you! tsk.

February 2009
- Chingay/Chinese new year

Will never forget this last minute plan to go for the Chingay after party. Also the day i met Wei en, who is this 15 year old boy who mirrors Kang when he was much younger. Also the day we went to Serene's place to bai nian & was welcomed with some hongkong smely feet. ahem.


- Valentines Day

Didnt expect the gift and this from Kang. He can be the most unromantic person in the world i swear but still, love this little surprise though i always expose him before the surprise actually happens! Haha and i know how he hates me for that. But.. still rmb he had wax on him and he was topless because the rooftop was so damn hot and stuffy. Actually if he didnt put the candles in the shape of a heart and plus the fact he was topless, i would have thought it was some cheeky setting to get me in the mood. HAHAHA.

March 2009

Met up with Eunice and screaming out butt of in macdonalds over hotel 626. I swear we are the biggest losers in the world. We can be so goddamn scared when we're in macdonalds with people around us and the lights all on. wow. She is the most humji person i know. HAHAHA.


April 2009

My 18th birthday celebration
Nothing fantastic but really enjoyed the company :)
I really appreciated everyone who came down despite having orientation and wtv else for my party :)

May 2009
I met one of the funniest/craziest/ awesome people in the world that made school so much fun. I still remembering bitching about how everyone in my class were not my kind of friends but they proved me wrong.

June 2009
Our stay at the Siloso Resort. One of the best moments i ever had with Kang, waking up every morning, with him by my side. Smacking him a thousand times and screaming babyyyyyyyyy at the top of my lungs just to get him off the bed for breakfast.. Bloody pig.

July 2o09
July was surprisingly boring.. Just tonnes of camwhoring with F4. Love this picture!

August 2009 - December 2009
Blogger decided to bail out on me and not let me upload photos.. Still, the rest of the months were as great. I got closer to the tennis people who made me stay on in the team to pursue tennis as a sport even though i still suck horribly.

2009 taught me alot. 2009 taught me to love hard, not take things for granted, not to be too quick to judge people and love myself more.

Thanks to Kang, for always being my pillar of strength and my umbrella for shelter rain or shine. Kang, my boyfriend, taught me alot this year. Our relationship was put to a test several times and despite all that, we endured and overcame the obstacles and i'm more than ever confident of out future together :) He taught me to love myself, be more confident as a person. He boosted my self esteem by a hundred and he made me realise how beautiful i was even when i wake up beside him with the smelliest breath/ messiest medusa hair. He made me strive hard to achieve what i want in my life. He made me see the positive things in life. He loved me and made so much sacrifices for me. Most of all, He made me believe. Belive that the future of 2 of us will work out.

Thanks to Eliza/ Serene/ Angeline/ Si Jin who were always there for me. Im not talking solely about being a listening ear but that we're always the Aunty gang that always sticks and put in the effort to meet up and share stories, watch each other grow as a person, fall in and out of love and offering advices. They always take the initiative and effort to celebrate birthdays together even though everyone has gone separate ways. I really cannot thank them enough for staying close and being part of the aunty gang. These people taught me to miss, miss them who were really my true friends. They unknowingly showed me who were really my true friends. They were my secondary school friends who watched me grow up. Watched me cry, laugh and smile. So really, Thanks for being part of my 2009 though we were supposedly suppose to stop being part of each other's lives at 2008.

Thanks to Cheryl/ Julian/ Raymond/ Darren / Aloy who made school so much fun and made me love my poly life. You guys made year 1 so much fun and enjoyable that i really wish we can stay classmates till the end of poly life. They're one of the reasons why i go to school for. Even if we separate in April to start a new school year, i will always always remember all the shit we did together and how much joy you guys brought into my 2009 :)
Thanks to any others unmentioned who feel they deserve some credibility for making my 2009 a good one!

LOVE Y'ALL (L)