How i spent my xmas

Merry Belated Christmas!!!! Have been so busy rushing homework.. I somehow dread the school to reopen this time because that means projects are going to be due and the final exams are coming.. and in a blink of an eye, i'm gonna be in my year 2!

This post is for the first time i think with pictures to make myself not fall asleep if i/anyone ever read this.

So Christmas this year was a little different. My dad wasnt around on xmas eve and xmas itself & kang's mum and sister were away on holiday so things were a little different this year.

On xmas eve, My mum booked a dinner buffet at our country club and Kang was there with my mum & i :) Dinner was not bad. There were a spread of food that i liked, steak, prawns, salads, seafood pasta, fish, pastries & cakes. And things that i didnt eat, Duck & lamb. I know Duck/ lamb is damn shiok yada yada but i really dont like the taste of it.

After dinner, the 3 of us couldnt stop camwhoring at the xmas tree.. My mum especially. she kept taking pictures of herself. She kept saying she wants a new fb picture all. So we took like 134254 shots of her and us just to find the perfect fb picture for her.

Her facebook worthy photo which i personally really like too :)

Kang's & I first picture at a xmas tree! :)

Sounds very stupid but kang and i or rather just I always wanted to take a picture at a big ass giant xmas tree like the one at ion (but we still havent) and last xmas we didnt either cause we didnt have the time and now we still havent had that shot.. I think the xmas tree also gonna remove soon so no choice make do with this little tree at my country club :/ What. taking picture at xmas tree very romantic what.

Kang & my mum. I dont know why but i think they look damn cute tgt!

Then after dinner and 30 mins of camwhoring, we went home and by then it was almost 12 and i was anticipating for the xmas exchange! I couldnt wait to see what Kang got for me and then he had to tell me that he FORGOT my present and i STILL HAD to give him his present first! Tsk. Bo bian i just give him and forced him write a xmas card for me!!! Who gives a xmas present and dont give xmas card 1!! Ps: he told me didnt write me one. zzz I know right!

So while i was showering, he was busy writing me a card and i was in the showers crossing my fingers that he doesnt just write "merry christmas, sorry i forgot to bring your present" because you know boys are like very dumb sometimes.. After im out of the shower, He took the initiative to read the card and fine, the card redeemed him so, forgiven for not bringing present.

ACTUALLY I MADE HIM READ IT OUTLOUD LA. CANT READ HIS WRITING FOR NUTS.

He loves his present yay :) He kept complaining the wrapping was horrid but hello? As if anyone cares if the wrapping nice or not. You still the rip the bloody wrapper apart right?! I still so sweet add some decoration with spare wrapping paper he still make so much noise that its ugly!

very ugly meh! I THINK INNOVATIVE.

We caught Jarhead after the one way exchange and just stood up till 4am before we slept. Glad that i spent xmas with him :)

Ps: He didnt get the GUESS charm bracelet but he got me the GUESS Neckace which is equally as chio hooray!

The next morning my mother was sucha sweetheart she cooked us breakfast. American breakfast in fact. With eggs, sausage, ham and bacon.

He left in the afternoon to spend with his dad while i went for Angeline's Grandma funeral. Really really hate funerals because it reminds me of my grandpa and i cant help but feel so much regret.

The next day my family had a simple dinner and we as a family exchanged gifts. Got an ipod classic for xmas while my brother got $400 cash. that lucky bastard.

So yes, happy christmas everybody :)

next would be new year. anticipating for it!

So much to do!

Omg the holidays are passing by so quickly! I still rmb last friday, i was at my friend's BBQ, getting bullied by the boys and last sat i was at the airport sending Angeline off! Omg time really flies!

And xmas is just next week.. Havent bought presents for Kang and for the xmas exchange with the girls! SOS.

Shopped with my mum on wednesday. Was at 313@ Somerset. Freaking awesome place!! THE FOREVER 21 IS LIKE A PARADISE. Its every girl's heaven! Its freaking 4 levels and every level brings so much excitement! As im on the escalator to the next level, my whole self is filled with so much anticipation.. i just cant describe my excitement when im at every level of F21. ya i know wisma/vivo also have f21 and i prolly been there like hundred times so whats so exciting abt it right? But seriously, the f21 at 313 is mega huge and awesome. AND its the first time i ever saw f21 so packed! The fitting rooms queue line was so long like queueing up for 4D!

I was rummaging through clothes finding sizes. Bloody girls all so skinny take the S and M leave all the L behind.. So yes, 313's F21 is a must to go! I guarantee you walk out of the store with something new.

Not just the F21 there was fantastic, but there were many other favorites brands of mine that were as awe-inspiring too!

That wednesday night, Kang stayed over cause we thought we need to spend more time tgt as i've been out at parties that we almost forgot what its like to actually stay home and spend time together! We caught funny people on dvd and thank god we didnt catch it at the movies the other time cause it was so boring. I dont know if its because we didnt understand the humor but all in all, i didnt really laugh much and the irony is that is a comedy..

Was too tired to complete the movie, fell asleep and got up first. Kang sleeps like a baby i swear. Its the most unmanliest way of sleeping! HAHAHA.

Cooked breakfast and it was one of the best breakfast cause we cooked it together. okay cheesy but true. ok maybe because i'm getting better at cooking.

I need to
1. Complete my entrepreneurship essay
2. Complete my ms excel project
3. Meet up with the boys & cheryl for project
4. SHOP FOR XMAS PRESENTS
5. Write Xmas cards!
6. Quit procrastinating!

Tiger Attacked By Cougars

My daily routine when i'm on my com is to 1st, log on to facebook, then check out blogshops, then comes the celebrity gossip and i tell you, every single day there is a new update on the whole Tiger Woods scandal. For those who dont know what he did, he apparently cheated on his wife. And its not like he cheated his wife on just 1 girl or if i close an eye, 2, he cheated on his wife with 5 different girls and like all of them are either escorts or cocktail waitresses or porn stars. I say gg to Tiger Woods.

Initially i thought, aiya Tiger Woods prolly cheated on his wife because his wife is like ugly and old and saggy and like her market value -1 or something? So if compared to all those girls she would lose out in every way? So its sort of clear why he would wanna cheat on her right? BUT NO.

Tiger Wood's wife is HOT.
Go google Elin Woods. and you will think Tiger Woods is insane to cheat on someone so hot. What is wrong with him?! In any case i think SHE should be one cheating on him!

I really sympathise with her because she has to go through all the shit media and Tiger is like loss for words, prolly too shock that his mess was exposed. Theres nothing to do to save the marriage! Its like 5 girls for God sake! Can you imagine? Like he might be having sex with all those girls at once and his poor hot wife is at home reading bedtime stories to the kids!

She was so nice enough to not like act on the all the cheating. I cant imagine if i were her, i wouldnt be as nice as her for sure! Man who cheat on their wifes or girlfriends are really jerks. They need to be a woman in their next life and get cheated on bad and see how it feels!

i hate boys sometimes

I swear I dont consider myself to be a sensitive person but i just dont get it why are guys pay so much attention to the slightest details of girls and i dont mean like how they will notice that their girl friend's having a bad day or a rough night but i am refering to their senseless ability to POINT OUT A GIRL'S FLAWS?

Seriously i'm not one who will cry over a remark if someone calls me fat or what but i am just really pissed how some guy would just come tell you that you put on weight and stuff without considering your feelings. Yes, Honesty is the best policy but when it comes to a girl's weight, YOU JUST DONT TELL HER IN YOUR FACE THAT SHE'S FAT OR GETTING FATTER.

TO A GIRL, ITS LIKE THE WORST COMMENT EVER.

You can tell her that her armpit hair long and curly, her eye like china, her nose like parrot, her ear like elf like mickey mouse, her feet smelly etc.. But u just can never tell a girl in her face/ indirectly/ through any technological means that she is F.A.T.

Its like a huge stab in the heart. You guys can think its nothing cause it doesnt affect you in anyway if a girl/guy calls you fat cause you guys dont give a fuck but please get this into your brain that a girl's weight means everything to her.

Why do guys care so much if a girl is getting fatter? Especially when they are guys who are absoultely not close to you and they can still come up to you and break the news that you're getting fatter? Hello?

I dont even think you care that im getting fat and u wanna help me abt my weight problem. YOU ARE GLOATING INSIDE THAT I AM GETTING FATTER.

Seriously fuck all those guys who ever told a girl who they are not even close to in anyway in their face that they are getting fatter or are fat. Its like what right do you have to tell me that i am? Do you really care that i am getting fat? How does it affect you in any way of your life? In no way i reckon. So seriously do yourselves and do us a favor and keep ur " she's getting fatter" comments to yourself because it just destroys a girl's confidence and wrecks the girl's self esteem.

Am i being sensitive now? I dont know but all i know is it utterly irritates me that some guys out there are so blunt and blatant. Can they just think before they say something so irrational?

18 days to Xmas!

First and foremost, I feel that this year's xmas is rather dull! I dont know why but i feel like its lacking the xmas spirit! I am very excited for xmas for the presents and simply just to spend time with my loved ones! But this year, xmas seems so different!

My dad wont be around on the xmas eve and xmas day itself! Hence, my mum booked a buffet dinner at our country club. Xmas day, tentatively, I'm gonna host a xmas gift exchange at my place and the girls are coming over (L) super excited for that! & Eliza and I will be cooking so thats the even more exciting part!

On the 26th, my mum's cooking a christmas dinner with turkey and all that and my dad's gonna be around :)

Currently no plans with Kang yet. (hints)

So i drew up my xmas wish list for this year and they are as follows!
1. The cliche of course and that is everyone's healthy and prosperous ($$$!!)
2. My beloved GPA maintains at 3.5
3. That my metabolism will increase so even if i eat like a monster, i wont get fat!!
4. THAT KANG CAN COME TO TEXAS WITH ME NEXT YEAR!!

I've got a few more but the rest are too personal! lol

Okay here comes the materialistic part.
1. When i buy my first 4D lottery ticket, i will strike big!!!! *crossing my fingers on this* If i strike big, i promise everyone xmas present double the size.
2. That GUESS charm bracelet i saw that day (this is directed to Kang to make some decisions to what he should get for me for xmas)
3. The super chio AX watch

Cant really think of anything else that i really want. But am going shopping with my mum this weekend!

GONNA SWTICH TO SHOPAHOLIC MODE this sat i dont care.
very long nvr feel shiok and spoilt.

Good is never good enough

Been really busy with school. Work is taking a toll on me because i feel so pressured to do well.

My parents especially, adds the pressure and really drives me crazy sometimes. They expect so much from me that sometimes its so hard to please them. So hard that good is really never good enough.

They came home just now, asked me about my test today. Today's test was on microsoft excel and i just don't get excel but i really tried my best to figure out the answer for the whole 50 mins of the test. In the end, I got a B,73/100 which to me is already an achievement because i really dont understand a shit about excel. So i told them i got a B, they freaked. ITS A FUCKING B and they were taken aback, like as if i told them i failed. They started overreacting and saying how its bad cause they expect me to get an A or a Z( distinction). They expect so much from me to the extent that even a B equals BAD. They even said they want me to get an A for every subject.

They even starting panicking and started accusing me of slacking and taking it easy. Which is totally ridiculous because i really try my fucking hardest for every single subject and they just dont have a clue. Every night before a test, i will be reciting everything i learnt that day in my brain before i sleep and sometimes i cant even sleep because i keep worrying about not doing well and disappointing them.

All this crap because, with my GPA of 3.75 last sem, they expect me to maintain that score and even try to get EVEN higher. Yes i agree, i should maintain it and i really hope and want to maintain it as well but i mean, they just don't get it and see how i am really trying so damn hard.

A bunch of random stuff

2012 trailers keep playing everywhere! Its so scary :( I wish theres someway i could find out if the world was really ending cause if it was, I'll freaking drop out of TP and get kang to do the same of course, and just go crazy every single day. Do everything i wish to do before i die.

Anyways, I cant believe this but i'm actully enjoying Kpop! I've been replaying this song over & over again. T ara & Supernova- Time to love. Its awesome i promise. I kept singing it to kang today and he was like telling me the song's not nice just because i sang it!

Of course i not happy, i purposely use his iphone sign up for wireless@sg account and then went to youtube it & he said it was not bad!

How unfair is it that the song is so much better when they sang it? I think i sound quite near them lor!

So we caught Jennifer's Body just now. We paid $10 for a ticket. Freaking not worth! Because the storyline to me quite weak so its like paying ten dollars to watch 2 mins of megan fox cleavage! Cant even see the real boobies lor. They bloody cut that scene! I know very well there was a scene of her coming out topless but they didnt know she it here! Wth. I can not pay a cent at all and see her cleavage online!
Scam!!

But i still think shes still so damn hot.

I was blog hopping and i really really really really x10 hate it that girls that are so fucking skinny eat so much like binge on fast food/ junk and NEVER GET FAT. They are still as bamboo-ish as ever. ITS NOT FAIR.

Sadden

I was doing my commskills homework which was to write a letter of appeal. The scenario of my letter is to appeal to raise funds for the needy families of Philippines that were affected by the typhoon recently. Okay so basically, i admit i didnt know much about the typhoon so i started researching and googling. Got the death toll numbers and such and then i venture into searching for a charitable organisation thats helping the poor and unfortunate.

I found this organisation which had a video of the life of people. Sounds boring right? Like our life revolves around school, games, food, tv, junkfood, dota, clubbing, partying, etc.. and i always complain how mundane my life is which is super hyprocritical after i watched the video.

But no they werent the lives of fortunate lucky people but, the lives of the people who were crying for help.

This video made me hold back my tears as the video roll second by second.
Every 15 seconds, some child dies of water related disease.
There are 140 million children below 18 years old, without 1 parent or both.
12 million people are in sex trafficking and are exploited in the sex trade.
200 000 children 7-15 both male and female are exploited into sex trade in Thailand. That means 548 a day and 1 children every 4 minutes.

The sex trafficking part really took a toll on me. Its really painful to know that children as young as 7 are forced into having sex.

When i was 7, i was so gullible, playing hopscotch, 5 stones, collecting pokemon cards. When these children are 7, they are locked in a room, forced to watch porn so as to know what to do when some dirty sick fuck wants to bed them.

REALLY PAINS ME TO KNOW THAT SO MANY PEOPLE ARE STILL SUFFERING.

So next time when you think your life is the worst, think again. There are thousands and thousands of children out there there that have lives that are 10 times worst than yours.

GG

Last weekend was the last week of holiday before school reopens & it was a great short weekend. I had 3 consecutive BBQs thats giving me a sore throat now causing my voice to be so hoarse. But anyhow, a great fun weekend to end off the holidays!

Kang's Chalet was the craziest. I'm proud that this chalet wasnt a jinx cause i'm somehow cursed to have really bad luck in chalets & my relationship will wreck but this time it was all smooth sailing. Met new people, laughed, played truth or dare (craziest truth or dare ever i swear), drank, got high, cussed, etc.. All in all, fun & crazy saturday :)

Yesterday was the first day of school, was excited to meet new people but disappointed once again that my classmates were freaks.

I cannot describe how disturbed i was when i was in my Introduction to project management class. First of all, that module is a fucking engine subject so i'm located in the engineering school.
Somehow, my class is loaded with 1. INDIANS like literally off from a bollywood tamil movie in vasatham channel. They were in their costumes and speaking tamil to one another. I cannot imagine working with anyone of them for projects. I WILL JUST DIE and end up dancing to JAI HO.

2. CHINA DUDES. Nothing really against them just that they were really typical. Had the smell & the face. Then this china dude kept staring at me & really creeped me out. Dont wanna work with him for project. WILL JUST GET SEXUALLY HARASSED.

3. This 2 girls who were kind enough to offer me to sit next to them but sadly, they were x1000 chinese speaking & they couldnt converse with me properly. They wanted to address me by my chinese name but i strongly objected because its scary for someone to do that. She started speaking in chinese and telling me how exciting it'll be that we'll be in the same class for tutorial & we can do projects together. OH MY GOD. at that instant, i think i mouthed out " oh my fucking god" but i just put on a really fake smile. I know i'm so mean but yes they're nice but still, the chinese really turns me off. Dont wanna work with them for project either. Will be giving them a chance to eat free rice. Obviously cause i'll be the one doing all the work cause HELLO? OUR WORK ARE ALL IN ENGLISH.

I just scoped the lecture hall yesterday. havent exactly seen the worst of the norm yet. I NEED TO MEET PEOPLE LIKE ME. 10 times worst than first day of school back in April.

Moodswing fest

I hate it when its the time of the month & i'll morph into this ugly angry witch and start throwing my temper. Yesterday was one of the worst moodswings i've ever had.

First of all, I'm sorry Kang for taking out on you but really, whatever happened was so sudden & frustrating i dont even know why i got so mad for. I seriously lost control & started giving him so much attitude & when i was on the phone with him complaining & bitching like hell i was actually shedding tears.

I was really overreacting yesterday because i really hate last minute arrangements. I was really taking out on him though its not his fault. But Angeline was right, he's trying his best to make things right. My fault on that part.

Sometimes our rls have so much negative energy because i get so moody ESPECIALLY during the time of the month. Poor kang would know its my period & really just keep quiet to avoid provoking me further. I pity him sometimes for having to take my load of shit.

But love him so much that he stills put up with it and understands :)

On the lighter note, I have so many parties lined up this weekend & am already so excited.
1. Karmun's PJ Party this friday! Got the outfit planned already. But kang sure steal my limelight.
2. Kang's Chalet! A good finale party before school begins!
3. Serene's belated Birthday Party!

Amazing how i'll be having BBQ for 3 days consecutively. eeek.

Boomzz

The other night, my mum & dad & i were watching interviews of our beloved dethroned Ris low and we had a really good laugh. I was thinking how she should consider joining Singapore's best comedian because she would really own every one else in that department. Her interview was a big joke. If you are bored enough, go watch her videos on razortv.com. I guarantee you will laugh and critic her non stop.

Her level of maturity is ris LOW. Out of the 7 parts of the interview that i watched, this one part of the interview made my parents & i laugh for a good 5 mins.
The question was about what she wanted to do in future. She said she wanted to be a nurse & even said she used to study at NP, nursing BUT she dropped halfway. Then she goes on saying she is currently studying Hospitality & this is will give her some business experience & then she'll open her very own clinic. WHAT THE BOOMZ. What made me laugh was

1. The way she answered so naturally like as if it was totally made sense to open a clinic with a stupid hospitality experience -.-
2.SHE THINKS HOSPITALITY = HOSPITAL.
3. SHE DROP OUT NURSING HALFWAY STILL CAN BRAVELY SAY SHE WANNA BE NURSE. hello? AS IF CAN STILL BE NURSE WITH SHIT DIPLOMA.
4. Which freaking nurse wanna be opens a clinic? As far as i know, ONLY DOCTORS OPERATE A CLINIC. ( so my mum was joking at how she should open her own clinic too since i got the hospitality experience like her)
5. She really looked/sound so idiotic and she doesnt even realise it.

Yeah she is one hell of a comedian. She naturally oozes this stupidity when she speaks.

& the other day she said she wanna open cake shop. Amazing, her in nurse outfit baking cakes and stealing credit cards. (Y)

One moment say want be nurse, the other moment want open cake shop. Tomorrow maybe want be president.

Cant wait for school to start :D Funny how i miss school when i'm in poly but really dread school back in secondary school.

TALKING ABT SECONDARY SCHOOL, my school's bdae next wednesday! YAY? no. I think my school is bull already. I studied so damn hard last year for the big O's and surpringsly topped the NA level. I was proud of my achievement and EVEN MORE HAPPY BECAUSE I THOUGHT 1. GOVERNMENT WILL GIVE ME $ FOR DOING WELL 2. SCHOOL WILL REWARD ME WITH CERT OR SMTH RIGHT. BUT NONE OF THAT HAPPENED..

I thought the school would invite me back during their bdae and present some award to me at least to recognise my achievement right?

Do i sound very zzz? But still, wtf every year they would do something like this. Why this year dont have? Bull.

Another 18th birthday

Yesterday was mooncake festival & was over at Jasmine's place for dinner & a mini celebration for Serene's 18h birthday. A pity we wouldnt be able to do something extravagant because they'll be having their promos soon. But really great that she's finally 18 and we can go hit the clubs with her along :) Talking about partying, i realised i didnt partied at all this whole holiday.

So i was reminiscing, i notice how we spend every birthdays together since we were as young as 14! I wonder if we'll still spend our next future birthdays tgt? I really hope so. Thinking abt it, We've watched each other grow up. From mending heartaches, coping with heartbreaks, looking for love, finding love, having silly crushes, doing stupid boy crazy things and many many more.



This few people have been with me for 4 years and counting & i think its amazing friendship :)

I came up with something really fun for me and kang. We're gonna take 1 day of next week to do something really special. Okay not very special, but something we'll never done before. Quite a huge risk for him becauseeeeee I PLANNED THAT WE'LL COOK FOR ONE ANOTHER :)

We'll cook something for the opposite & we'll not reveal the dish. We'll be given $20to get groceries and we'll cook something crazy for one another. I already have one recipe in mind. CANT WAIT :D

Addiction

This is bad, really really badddddd. I think i'm addicted to shopping and this is a problem because each time i have access to money, i'll be so tempted to spend it. I'm still waiting for my pay from both f1 & the it fair to process in and i'm already shopping online thinking that the pay will cover up for my expensese BUT I TOTALLY FORGOT THAT MY PAY WAS SUPPOSE TO COVER UP MY PREVIOUS EXPENSES.

I am trying to avoid going to my favourites and click onto those various blogshops that i've bookmarked! I just went to one of my fav blogshops & omg, i see like at least 4 items that i'll love to buy.

Not forgetting my spree from victoria's secret.
THIS IS BAD.

Baby i'm addicted, i'm out of control, and you're the drug that keeps me from dying.
Lyrics from 'addicted' by Enrique Igelsias. Perfectly describes my condition now.

Sorry sound bimbotic but really, sprialling out of control by splurging my money all on clothes.

On the other hand, i made kang smile today and im happy my money's worth it. Again, i got his present ONLINE too.

I had a really crazy ambitious thought and that was to set up my own blogshop!!!!!
Kill 2 birds with 1 stone! I'll get the clothes & i'll get to earn money too.
but then all sorts of questions came in my mind like where the hell do i get stock from? I dont know shit about making a webpage, i dont have customer base.

I even heard that one of my friends cousin earned like freaking 10k from her own blogshop. freaking amazing & successful.

Anyone knows how to get stock!!!

Backstreets Back!

Backstreet boys was awesomeeeeeee. To top that awesomeness, i watched it for FREE. Thanks to my f1 job and the location i was at, it entitled me to watch it live & free of charge! Too bad i missed katy perry on the 25th! So anyways, BSB sounded really good live. you know how some artiste really suck when they sing live? But no bsb were awesomely good.

I couldnt believe when they said they've been making music for 16 years, despite their on and off in the music scene, its still freaking 17 years and thats like crazy because it means they've been in the music industry since i was freaking 2 !! Omgggg but they were still as good as ever since i first listened to them when i was 7/8. My first song i ever heard from them was "as long as you love me" and ever since, i fell in love with them and had the biggest crush on nick carter and when i saw him that night, i almost fainted. He still looked as cute as he was back in the 90s! But nows even better because he looked x10 hot.

Everyone of them got more handsome. I rmb how i use to think Howie was like the not so good looking guy in the group, but when i saw him that night, again, i was super blown away by his charisma.

I'm sure everyone of you must haved sang and liked a backstreet boys song before. I could sing most of their songs when they sang that night. Some of them were like the call, more than that, everybody (L), i want it that way (another fav), shape of my heart, show me the feeling of being lonely & of course straight through my heart.

Really really glad i saw & heard them sing!!

I am still deciding if i should cut my fringe & get those bangs again. Really afriad to look stupid! I'm gonna make a decision by tonight and after tonight, i'll go get it cut tmr!

My life's been a blah

I've been working for F1 since tuesday and its utter boredom. The company i'm working for, i wont mention who cheated our feelings. At the breifing, they were saying how we need to know how to hold a tray, response to customer's needs and act calmly when confronted with a situation. THOSE WERE ALL BULL. I thought we'll be doing waitressing cause whatever he said sounded like we were gonna be waitresses but like i said, BULL.

What have i been doing the past few days/midnights? Well, just sitting around wasting my life away, anticipating for time to past quickly. Theres nothing to do seriously. Our job is mainly to give out bento lunchbox for the staff there. THERES NO NEED TO HOLD A DAMN TRAY, NO NEED TO RESPONSE TO THE STAFF NEEDS AND THERES NO DIFFICULT SITUATION THAT WE ENCOUNTERED. I swear, they got me so excited to do waitressing in the end, i'm nothing more than a security guard, just sitting there guarding the food, ensuring no one steals the food. -.-

I'm left two more shifts, tonight 11pm-7am and tmr, 4pm-9pm then i'm done. Cant wait. Seriously its good that i'm paid to do nothing but still, the sitting around not doing shit is very pathetic.

Oh not to mention our pay. Its pathetically 6 per hour. When other jobs are paying a min of 8 per hour. It makes alot of difference ok. Oh, and the VP of our company couldnt be less sarcastic and say " WOW. recession we still pay you 6 per hour"
I swear when he said that i wanted to punch his face.

I learnt my lesson, next year if theres still F1 or in future, i'm gonna work for some other company and get a better pay with more things to do.

IT fair ended on sunday and thank God its all over. I still can rmb my post back in march talking about the haunting experience about the comex fair. This IT show really made me opened up about the kind of there is in Singapore.

I swear there were so many annoying encounters with customers that were

1. Bargain Hunters & Cheapskate aunties
bloody cheapo and demanding for so many free gifts when their computer only cost $499.What the fuck i was so pissed that they kept bargaining with me when it was already so cheap. & If you dont lower the cost or give them more free gifts, they try threaten you say they go somewhere else and buy. okay guess what? FUCK YOU. I DONT CARE. GO AHEAD. I only earn a mere $6 from that computer i dont need their $6.
Then lo and behold, they come back to you because thats the cheapest netbook in the whole fair.. I already told them its the cheapest here & no one can offer better but they turned me down then still got the face to come back ask.


2. Bloody annoying Banglas
No offence to any banglas out there. Seriously i love that they work so hard to build roads, clear our garbage, do our construction work and stuff but when it comes to the it fair. I really hate them to the highest degree. They are the most sickening people to serve. One encounter that drove me nuts was this guy who was buying 2 laptops. I charged him 1608 for 2 laptops and if u bother to do the math, thats like 800++ for 1 laptop with like 2 free 4GB thumbdrive, 2 laptops with free upgrade of the RAM, 2 WIRELESS MOUSE and 2 carry case. Seriously, it was such a bloody cheap buy and he agreed to whatever i was going to charge/give him thus we closed the deal. We went over to the counter, he paid cash, got his change and then i thanked him and walked away. Next thing you know, he called me back and started a scene. Why? OVER A FREAKING HEADSET. He saw the other customer with a free headset and speakers and many other things and thats because that customer bought a laptop that was $1300. He got really upset over how he doesnt have a headset and demanded for one. I couldnt give him because HIS COMPUTER WAS FUCKING 800 dollars. how to give right? He created a fuss and said he wants a refund. oh my god. i wanted to strangle him and scold him in 435496569 vulgarities. Then he said he wants to go back to the booth behind and pay 1608++ with the headset included. I SAID "FINE YOU PAY ANOTHER $11 I'LL GIVE TO YOU". HE SAID NOOO. I RATHER GO BACK THERE. (wtf at this point of time, i really wanted to stab him with my pen)

BRAINLESS OR WHAT? ISNT IT THE SAME AS THE OTHER SIDE? NO? _|_
Then my manager got so pissed off cause he was being a nuisance, my manager just told him in the face" i give you , you kepe your mouth shut" He really kept his mouth shut and got his freaking headset.


3. Those" huh no la i just nothing to do come see see" Seriously, fuck those people. I clearly rmb this incident when i spent like 30 mins explaining to him about the computer and persuading and promoting the good of that laptop. That fella seemed super interested and he really listened to me. I thought he was going to buy from me at the end of the 30mins but noooooooooo. When i posed the question" so how? you want to buy now? " He was taken aback like as if i asked him if we could get married now or smth and giggled and said " huh no la i already have one at home i just come and see see" Immediately i gave him the most guailan face ever and walked off.

Oh my god. Seriously, what is wrong with you people?! If you already have one, why waste your time and my time hearing me out and wasting my breath?

So to those people listed above, FUCK YOU ALL.
& the best people to serve are CAUCASIANS. why? they are laidback and they dont bother bargaining and cutting your throat.

This comex fair is shit, i only sold 15 sets compared to 40 in the last show. Sales was horrible!!!!

Up next, F1 attachment at padang. Hopefully i wont meet such shitty people again.

Scariest incident ever.

I'm done with lasik and i dont regret having it done although it hurt like hell on the first day! I can see so clearly now. am really happy :)

Anws, the op as a killer. I went to the eye clinic feeling super calm and unafraid! I thought it was just a laser, like how painful can a laser be? My dad even told me it wouldnt hurt at all so i was feeling really relax until the nurse called me into the operating room and i didnt even realise i was already going for the op!! My dad was sitting outside unaware that i was also going for the op already. I thought and he thought i was jsut going for an eye check first but omg. the nurse put on the surgery gown for me, got me prepared with all the eye drops pills and such which was suppose to calm me down..

Holy shit when i was lying on the operating table it was like the scariest 10 mins of my life. i started feeling so anxious and breaking in cold sweat. I'm not kidding!!! The first part of the op was some suction thing to my eye and i was so taken aback cause nobody mentioned there was gonna be a suction!!! Best part the doc just told me i was gonna feel pressure in my eye. HE DIDNT MENTION PAIN, HE MERELY SAID PRESSURE. WTH.

He kept telling me to not move my head or chin, i kept so fucking still because i was damn scared if i moved an inch, i might go blind because he might make a mistake. I DIDNT EVNE DARE BLINK. Because i didnt wanna blink, i started tearing and crying!! I was crying while being operated. Omg. I was so scared i swear. The doctor didnt even give me a cue to when the laser was gonna begin or when i was actually really gonna see. oh my god. It was like so sudden and scary. He lifted the corena flap without notice AND BOOM i was like blind. Seriously i couldnt see shit. I could only see bright white light &i thought oh shit. I'm gonna die.

SCARIEST SHIT EVER.

After the op and when i was at home, i was complaining the whole time because my vision was impaired!! everything was a blur. I couldnt even open my eyes. I had to force my eyes open to see. I was crying and whining like a little bitch to my dad because he kept telling me to open my eyes so he could put the eyedrops for me and i kept telling him i cant and he kept pissing me off. oh my god. I was regretting as hell already thinking that maybe i shouldnt have did lasik and forgo all the suffering. My dad felt bad that i was in pain or my eyes were in such pain that he also thought maybe he should have made me "wait a few more years when im older and bigger to take pain" quoted from him. But thank God by around 6, my eyes could actually open and my vision was improving.

Next day, i could see so clearly! But my eyes are sensitive to bright light and sunlight so i have to wear shades to shield my eyes..

But yes, i'm happy the pain is only for half a day and i can see perfectly now :)

11.15

Tomorrow's my lasik surgery! i hope all will go well and i will say bye to my specs for good!!!!

Influx

If you have noticed, there is an overwhelming increase of China people coming to Singapore to work.
I'm not against China people or anything im just noticing the really big increase of china people working in Singapore. My brother told me that Singapore's population is about 4.5 million. And guess what? 2 million consists of foreigners! I'm pretty sure the china people take up mostly of the 2 million. Can you imagine how scary this is? we are going to be outnumbered soon!!

I am pretty sure that everyday in our lives, we will meet a china person. I've noticed that i encounter a china person multiple times in a day! For instance, at Ion last week, i was at sakae teppanyaki, the teppanyaki chef was from china. The toilet cleaner was china and the security guard at Zara was also from china. Today, i was at the coffee shop, the one who took the order for the drinks was also china, the ban mian auntie was also china! think abt it, if you have observed, almost all the ban mian sellers are from china! Omg.

Isnt it scary? One day we might morph into a country filled with communist! We are already becoming China number 2! I dont know but it just freaks me out that maybe one day, our army might be filled with China people too! Think abt it! Maybe our police and fireman all china people because no one wants to fill the job position!

We actually cant blame anybody for this but ourselves because its because no one wants to take up the vacancy of being a cleaner, security guard, petrol pump boy etc.. Because why?

OBVIOUSLY BECAUSE EVERYONE STUDIED SO HARD IN SCHOOL. All FIGHTING FOR A SPOT IN UNI, FIGHTING FOR MANAGERIAL/PROFESSIONAL POSITIONS.

So the poor aunties and uncles and china people have to fill the positions.

In the next generation, i can already imagine the whole country filled with China residents. Like maybe 2 in 5. Its just scary.

Bored & Hungry

i realised how there is a problem with blogger. The whole layout is so crappy now..

Intending to stay home from today till monday unless i really need to go out and do something necessary like grab some food or something like that. It actually doesnt really matter if i go out or not but i just dont want anybody i know to see me in my spectacles! Hahaha except for kang. Sorry but i'm just really ai bin.

Anyways, kang's at syfc today so i wont be seeing him, mum's buying me subway for dinner & i cant wait to eat alreayd because i'm so damn hungry now!

I would kill for any of this now.
1. CHEESEBURGER WITH FRIES AND LOTS OF KETCHUP.
2. SOFT SHELL CRAB HANDROLL
3. FISH AND CHIPS FROM SWENSENS WITH LOTS OF TARTAR SAUCE.
4. BREAD AND BUTTER PUDDING FROM DELIFRANCE
5. POTATO WEDGES WITH LOTS OF CHEESE.

:( i feel like eating so much i dont know why.
But i just told my mum to buy me cheeseburger from macs ^^v

Was at Ion on friday and ion's really impressive!! Its mega huge, in fact i think its bigger than vivo in terms of the number of stores and the interior and exterior was phenomenal. I was at ion level 1 and i slowly explored from level 1 up and i thought how sucky ion was because it was only catering to the rich.. With multi storeys of Louis Vuitton, Cartier etc.. Dior, Dolce and Gabanna, Marc Jacobs, burberry etc.. all the branded goods basically. & as i was exploring, i noticed how ION was so empty! Seriously there were nobody around except for sales girls and such. I was thinking how Ion is so lame because no one in Singapore would really buy branded stuff unless they're having a massive sale..

& then i explored from level 1 and down and i was shocked to see that they had so many mid range shops! Omg Ion is a haven for shopaholics. They have everything, Aldo, Armani exchange, Guess, Zara, Mango, BEBE, Steve madden.. etc. Seriously You name it you'll find it. And their stores alone are pretty big. Wow. They also had alot of food joints such as Fish N Co, Xin wang hongkong cafe, Dunkin Donuts, Swensens! I'm so going back there again to really explore and shop!

Overall, Ion is amazing really. I think its interior and exterior is really mind-blowing. I was really awed by the design. I think its definitely one of the most beautifully designed shopping center i've ever been in the world..

Spectacle freeeee

I'm going for my lasik eye treatment on the 1st of September! Hurray! Finally after so many years i'm gonna be spectacle free! I dont have to wake up in the morning in a blur, waking up at midnight thinking got ghost also i cannot see. HAHAHA. i am so damn excited!

I still cannot understand why in the world did i try all means and ways just to wear specs when i was 10! I thought it was damn cool to wear specs and turns out, its not that cool cause it made me look horrendous. Just think about my ez link card photo for those who have seen it before. You'll just be on my side 100%. hahaha!

EXCITEDDDDD.

So many things to do after the exams which ends on thurs!!
1. Working for the IT fair again this sep 10-13. That means money :D and that also means shopping!!!
2. Kang's birthday. he is suppose to throw a party but bloody hell it was all too last min so i dont know if he's still throwing a party. But still, i'm trying to think of something special to do on his birthday.
3. Gym sessions to get my gym body!
4. F1 work attachment! Though its super exploiting us by paying us 6 an hour, i guess its an experience and will add color to my testimonial.
5. Clique chalet!
6. DOTA. I HAVENT PLAYED THAT FOR SO LONG AND I WANNA START PLAYING.
& many many more! I cant wait to line up things to do during the exams!

3 more papers to go. Fnb, wish me luck.

Mad Full

Today's macro paper was surprisingly manageable! Kuddos for being able to self learn and actually understand what was going on in the paper! So happy that MACRO IS FINALLY OVER. 4 more papers to go. Cant wait!!!!

So after macro, kang and i went over to marina square's yuki yaki, some restaurant that was like seoul garden just a little different because you can fry ice cream? not really fry, but make your own? Its actually not a bad place and there were a wide variety of selection. We ate so much that i think i ate ahead for tomorrow's breakfast!

We managed to actually finish 95% of everything we took and i'm not kidding, we took ALOT. I ate so much my stomach feels so uncomfortable now and i've to eat dinner! Because i promised my mum kang and i will be back for dinner cause she's cooking curry chicken tonight.

I suddenly regret eating the buffet :( cause i'm mad full!

I was so damn full i actually puke halfway while talking to kang! How gross was that?! I was laughing and laughing and i suddenly burp and then this little bit of puke came out. Kang was damn turn off HAHAHA. it was so funny. I was suggesting to kiss him to gross him out even more.

I think i might actually puke after the curry chicken..

Anws, did anyone catch the Victoria Secret Fashion show last night? THE VS models are mad hot. Kang kept saying " wahhhh imagine all the girls in my house now" Wow how insulting in my face. okay lor like this, imagine wang leehom, daniel wu, Enrique Iglesias, Channing Tatum, Bradley Cooper, Chace Crawford, Zac efron all in my house lor.

After my papers, i am devoting myself to a healthy diet and exercise regime plan! & strangely, kang is my instructor when he eats like a bloody dinosaur and doesnt exercise at all let alone go to the gym.. He eats chocolate and junk everyday and he wants to step 1 fit guy. HAHAHA.

Cant wait to start getting fit!

Pondering

My title for this entry was suppose to be misery and how miserable i am for studying so damn hard, forcing myself to remember everything i learnt, enduring the stress of waking up and doing nothing else but study and even reciting whatever i've learnt before i sleep and even in my dreams.

But this person, someone close to my heart is experiencing something so much worst. I just want this person to know that this person means alot to me and might not even know it. This person has helped me through my secondary school days and being there for me, putting up with all my nonsense and ordeals i have encountered in school and now that this person is suffering inside, i cant provide much of an help. I just hope everything will tone down in time to come and you can be back to your jolly self & see you genuinely smile for me again!

Cheesy but true.

Apart from this, I went to church this afternoon with my mum and one question posed by the pastor strucked me. "Why do we have to die?" I couldnt find an answer to that question and i admit that i'm actually very scared to die.

I always fear dying early because i assume that death should only take place when we're old and sick not because of starvation, a mishap, an accident or other sufferings when we're young. I always tell myself that i must make the best out of everything in my life and do what i wanna do and as planned and not regret the life i had when i'm about to leave this world.

I want to be remembered of someone who made an impact on people who know me. Not just solely on what i did but the kind of person i was to them. Can you imagine leaving this world and people not being able to remember you as what kind of person you were and no one can think of what to say abt you in their eulogy? or worst remembered you as a mean person? You will just be that faint memory when you depart from mother Earth.

I always want to bring light to other's life, through smiling and just being cheery everyday. Why? Because life is short, why do we wanna spend so much time on our lives going through so much pain and enduring so much sadness? Why not just try to move on or learn from that fall and live life with optimism instead of spending that much time on mourning and greiving, why not do something more useful to make your life more accomplished?

Another thing that scares me is that "life" wouldnt be the same when we're in heaven. I always wondered if life on earth and life in heaven would be the same? Would we be able to enjoy the luxury? Indulge in good food? Go shopping? Go to a beach? Go to a amusement park? I really dont know and it really scares me that heaven, (according to what i think and many children and others think)is a place whereby everyone is dressed in white and we're all just up there looking down and observing everyone. Isnt that scary?

As the song goes, Heaven is a wonderful place, filled with glory and praise.

I remember asking someone, i cant rmb who, what heaven is like is it that wonderful? And that someone told me that heaven is just like Earth. We can eat/shop/swim/jog/have fun just like on Earth. But thats doubtful. Who will ever know what heaven actually is like unless they've been there and seen it themselves.

I guess i'll never know how Heaven is like until i leave this world someday..

Why am i so deep in thought and sounding so philosophical? I really dont know. I guess i just want to tell that someone that life really is so short and think about all the years you've had and all the happiness or you've encountered and maybe just maybe, this will make you live the life you had before all the problems you're facing now, surfaced.

Panicky

My coursework grades
POM: A
Macroecons: B+
RHT: B+
IHT: No clue but i'm crossing my fingers for a B+ at least!
Commskills: Bloody Hell, we got a C for our group project. Mainly because of inconsistency of the fonts and such.. So,I'll be thankful for a B.
F&B: No clue either, but once again, hoping for a B+ at least or an A.

The class is very competitive. Everyone is doing really well and it scares me. But whatever it is, i need my good GPA this sem and a super zai GPA on my senior year. If not, im seriously screwed.

1. My dad is not a rich man, i dont have the luxury to study overseas.
2. I HAVE AND MUST enter a U in Singapore by hook or by crook.
3. I dont think i have the luxury of entering a private U either.
4. I'll end up doing something UNPLANNED.

& suddenly, i'm picturing my future and its getting blurrer. Maybe because im so anxious about doing well that i'm so pessimistic.

I need to seriously ace my end sem test which is in 2 weeks! There is seriously alot to study and i'm fucked for macroecons. I DESPERATELY NEED HELP IN THAT SUBJECT. Bless my soul, macroecons paper is jsut next friday!!! @$$%^^&%^@@#@!! I still have 6more lectures & apparently, lectures 8-12 are foreign to me cause i was too lazy and complacent to go for the lectures. haha.

I promise i'll study after dinner later!

I am still waiting for the government to give me my edusave scholarship cash prize!!!

I NEED THE HOLIDAYS TO COME!!

Wants

Went over to Ray's place to practice commskills presentation thats on tomorrow..
In the end, it was not so productive because we ended up doing our own things and the usual " i will do it tonight" Hahaha.

oh and i bought a new pair of havaianas!! Newurbanmale was having a crazy 50 cent sale and i couldnt resist to buy myself a new pair of golden havaianas for only $19.95! Thats like uber cheap compared to the usual price of $39.90! Okay too bad for whoever thats reading this and wants to buy a pair now because unfortunately, the sale ends today.

When i got home, I managed to study 6 lectures of Econs! *applause!!
I have already planned my timetable for this 2 weeks and i noticed how busy i'm going to be and how much there is to study! SERIOUSLY ANTICIPATING FOR THE HOLIDAYS.

Kang & I plan to study at Marina Square's Subway, where we used to study at together when we were chionging for the big O's. Amazing how time flies. I still can remember studying chemistry with him in our school uniform :)

Kang's birthday is just next month!! I need to start planning something special for him!

I was thinking of all the things that i wish i could have and the only way i can have those things is to get a really good GPA for this sem and maybe just maybe my dad would be kind enough to grant my wishes!

Top of the list: He can give me $ for a shopping spree!
I have a desperate urge to shop!!

Unhappy National Day

This year's national day is so bleak. I woke up at 1.30pm with a horrible neckache. Its been aching since last night and its still aching. I need kang now to give me a neck massage :(

The whole house is so quiet now because my dad's in beijing, my mum's at church, my brother's also at church and he's leaving for a party later (i'm so jealous of him) and kang's at this childhood nanny's place. My grandma is in her room watching tv and i'm out in the living room rotting my ass away...

I was suppose to have picnic with Jas & Serene at padang but i didnt wanna ditch my mum cause if i went to have picnic with them my mum would be all alone watching the parade on tv by herself and thats so mean!

I feel so lazy to go to the gym though i promised myself last night :/ and i havent played tennis for a really long time i bet i'll forget how to hold the racket. I'm serious. I've problem remembering my grips.

I tried studying just now and macroecons was a blur. I couldnt understand the lecture at all. I NEED HELP.

Okay, i'm going to watch Paris & Milan on youtube now.

Happy Birthday Singapore!

O-m-g

CBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBB. i typed out like a whole lot of crap AND BLOODY LJ DCED ON ME. fuckkkkkkkkkkk.

I cannot help but mention how much i've been eating the past few days! Its horribly unhealthy and i am so afriad of putting on the pounds. Dont get me wrong okay. i dont think i'm super fat or overweight i just think that there are areas abt my body that can be improved. Its frustrating because i cannot control myself from bingeing! can someone help me out of this?!

I've been indulging in good food for the past few days and maybe weeks that i hardly even remember when was the last time i forgo the desserts!

Okay why in the world am i being such an insane bitch, bitching about my diet?

I am hungry now!!!! and when i'm hungry i go google for images of food. and it'll make me even hungrier and i end up shutting down the com cause i'm too mad and i'm force myself to sleep off the hunger pangs.

Anyways, i was thinking of switching back to blogger because i admit that i DO NOT KNOW HOW TO EDIT MY STUPID BACKGROUNDS AND LAYOUT so much so that i have to use those customized journal layouts and nothing they offer are appealing to me! And, livejournal is so diffficult to add in links and such. I know i'm such a loser but really, livejournal's too complicating for me. ANOTHER REASON WHY I HAVE TO SWITCH TO BLOGGER, LJ IS A BLOODY LAGGER.

I managed to find back my old blog links. As old as when i was 11 years old when i was still a kid. It was the funniest shit i ever came across. I couldnt believe i was such a twit. I could see the clear picture why i failed PSLE and it was because of my horrid english.

A preview of what i saw..

Tuesday, November 04, 2003

04 november
Todaes.. Was extreme crazy. I was dying of dehydration and sun burn! Like wut madness.... I went to Sentosa outing..Class outing.. Boring... At underworld, i say Elite models from all over the world.... I took a picture wif them hehes....

-x-Me-x- at 12:15 AM :: link
Omg something was clearly wrong with the way i spelled. hahaS


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04 November(Daddy's Bd and Class outings)
harloes.... Today was funn! My dad's Birthday and sentosa outing. At underwater-world, we saw Elite models. Wha kaus... they were so damn pretty! OMG! I had a picture with them too.. Hehes... I got a picture with Miss vietnam, France and slovekia.. Hehes.

wha kaus. I dont know why the hell i had to blog two entries on the same day/date/year which has exactly the same content. I guess i was trying to emphasise that i went t Sentosaw and i saw some Elite models.

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Next, WHEN I SAW THIS, I INSTANT LOL AND ROFL X100 times


I apparently, created a blog or as i claim, a website called "girls planet" Wtf. i must be trying to step some seventeen magazine website that provides information about growing up and such and educating girls on puberty and massive hair issues BUT NO.

Thursday, July 17, 2003

This is a website for all girls at any age! Whats Hott?
Pictures of cute celebs and hott pop stars!
profiles of celebs and popstars..!!!
try this website!

HAHAAHAHAHA OMG. i seriously had a great laugh at myself when i saw what i actually did. The best part was after that one entry on the introduction of my "website" THERE WERE NO OTHER SUBSEQUENT ENTIRES or any posted pictures of cute celebs and hott pop stars. omg i am so ashamed of myself.

There are many many more other blog links which i stumbled upon and dont rmb myself creating anything like that. I am so embarrassed by myself that i keep claiming blogs = website. And how i keep trying to come up with other random planet site.


end sem test in 2 weeks, bookworm mode!!