Have been so busy lately. It's like my busy schedule is ongoing and never ending!
It really sucks because this has affected my sleep.
and its not fair because its not like i dont want to sleep or staying up late watching tv, but
i am seriously tired as hell. emotionally and physically. but my body or brain just refuses to let me sleep. It really really sucks because i spend like 2 hours tossing and turning, counting sheep, closing my eyes, trying so hard to shut everything out from my mind but i still cant get to sleep!
Ugh. and my class is at 9am which made everything worst because i go to school all zoned out.
The amount of sleep i had in the past days is less than 10 hours.
I've got 3 tests this week.
Another one next week. Oh god.
2 more project submissions.
Final exams in 3 weeks.
Lately, my laptop decided to just die on me.
So i have to find a day, go down all the way to alexandra road which is mad far just to service it and then travel another day to retrieve it back. ugh.
The man told me my harddisk wont be affected and it better not be cause i've got like photos that date back to 2006 to present. and 3000 over music.
So really i can imagine how mad i am going to be if my harddisk was affected.
My parents havent been making things better too.
Simply because they LOVE LOVE LOVE to add more pressure.
It really sucks because this has affected my sleep.
and its not fair because its not like i dont want to sleep or staying up late watching tv, but
i am seriously tired as hell. emotionally and physically. but my body or brain just refuses to let me sleep. It really really sucks because i spend like 2 hours tossing and turning, counting sheep, closing my eyes, trying so hard to shut everything out from my mind but i still cant get to sleep!
Ugh. and my class is at 9am which made everything worst because i go to school all zoned out.
The amount of sleep i had in the past days is less than 10 hours.
I've got 3 tests this week.
Another one next week. Oh god.
2 more project submissions.
Final exams in 3 weeks.
Lately, my laptop decided to just die on me.
So i have to find a day, go down all the way to alexandra road which is mad far just to service it and then travel another day to retrieve it back. ugh.
The man told me my harddisk wont be affected and it better not be cause i've got like photos that date back to 2006 to present. and 3000 over music.
So really i can imagine how mad i am going to be if my harddisk was affected.
My parents havent been making things better too.
Simply because they LOVE LOVE LOVE to add more pressure.
I get so stressed up when the tests are coming because i feel every pressure to get an A.
i've mentioned before on how my parent's expectations of me are like sky high.
Sometimes i feel like i study so damn hard only for their sake. I do study for myself but i just cant help but feel that im trying so hard for them.
Because of all the pressure they give me, i drive myself into endless stress.
I tell myself to take a chill pill, relax but it just doesnt work.
The thought of failing or doing badly makes me scared.
Scared that i will let myself down for not trying hard enough.
Scared that i let my parents down.
and so i push myself even more.
i've mentioned before on how my parent's expectations of me are like sky high.
Sometimes i feel like i study so damn hard only for their sake. I do study for myself but i just cant help but feel that im trying so hard for them.
Because of all the pressure they give me, i drive myself into endless stress.
I tell myself to take a chill pill, relax but it just doesnt work.
The thought of failing or doing badly makes me scared.
Scared that i will let myself down for not trying hard enough.
Scared that i let my parents down.
and so i push myself even more.
so much so that i feel like im driving myself crazy literally.
No one can tell me to relax or take it easy because they will never understand the pressure my parents give me. Unless your parents are just like mine.
When good is never good enough.
No one can tell me to relax or take it easy because they will never understand the pressure my parents give me. Unless your parents are just like mine.
When good is never good enough.
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