Panicky

My coursework grades
POM: A
Macroecons: B+
RHT: B+
IHT: No clue but i'm crossing my fingers for a B+ at least!
Commskills: Bloody Hell, we got a C for our group project. Mainly because of inconsistency of the fonts and such.. So,I'll be thankful for a B.
F&B: No clue either, but once again, hoping for a B+ at least or an A.

The class is very competitive. Everyone is doing really well and it scares me. But whatever it is, i need my good GPA this sem and a super zai GPA on my senior year. If not, im seriously screwed.

1. My dad is not a rich man, i dont have the luxury to study overseas.
2. I HAVE AND MUST enter a U in Singapore by hook or by crook.
3. I dont think i have the luxury of entering a private U either.
4. I'll end up doing something UNPLANNED.

& suddenly, i'm picturing my future and its getting blurrer. Maybe because im so anxious about doing well that i'm so pessimistic.

I need to seriously ace my end sem test which is in 2 weeks! There is seriously alot to study and i'm fucked for macroecons. I DESPERATELY NEED HELP IN THAT SUBJECT. Bless my soul, macroecons paper is jsut next friday!!! @$$%^^&%^@@#@!! I still have 6more lectures & apparently, lectures 8-12 are foreign to me cause i was too lazy and complacent to go for the lectures. haha.

I promise i'll study after dinner later!

I am still waiting for the government to give me my edusave scholarship cash prize!!!

I NEED THE HOLIDAYS TO COME!!